【 】【 】【 】【 】【 】【 】【 】【他】【说】【：】【“】【眼】【下】【在】【这】【儿】【没】【有】【我】【办】【不】【成】【的】【事】【】【”】【 】【 】【 】【 】【 】【6】【2】【 】【 】【 】【 】【 】【 】【 】【娅】【梅】【说】【：】【“】【说】【吧】【，】【你】【要】【同】【意】【】【我】【就】【死】【在】【这】【儿】【。】【”】【 】【 】【 】【 】【 】【“】【他】【俩】【和】【你】【说】【的】【┅】【模】【样】【】【”】【 】【 】【 】【 】【 】【“】【是】【怕】【你】【后】【悔】【。】【”】【 】【 】god+i+am+lonely【 】【 】【 】【 】【“】【我】【试】【过】【】【除】【了】【你】【谁】【都】【不】【能】【在】【经】【营】【上】【帮】【上】【我】【。】【”】【 】【 】【 】【 】【 】【 】【她】【不】【走】【了】【】【她】【决】【计】【不】【再】【走】【了】【。】【五】【十】【岁】【的】【年】【龄】【使】【她】【最】【终】【明】【白】【】【省】【会】【那】【儿】【除】【了】【有】【她】【的】【大】【笔】【存】【款】【和】【一】【笔】【固】【定】【的】【巨】【额】【进】【项】【，】【剩】【余】【的】【】【大】【凡】【人】【所】【之】【需】【，】【都】【还】【在】【张】【家】【营】【子】【】【她】【要】【去】【告】【诉】【天】【元】【，】【说】【我】【不】【走】【了】【】【你】【也】【留】【下】【吧】【，】【我】【们】【今】【晚】【就】【合】【住】【在】【一】【块】【】【如】【同】【那】【年】【她】【从】【省】【会】【过】【年】【回】【来】【，】【在】【台】【子】【地】【的】【一】【夜】【一】【样】【】【省】【会】【的】【那】【个】【世】【界】【，】【说】【到】【底】【不】【是】【她】【的】【情】【感】【所】【寄】【】【以】【为】【十】【五】【年】【的】【奋】【斗】【历】【程】【，】【是】【她】【人】【生】【的】【一】【段】【华】【彩】【篇】【章】【】【可】【到】【这】【张】【家】【营】【子】【一】【看】【，】【方】【知】【她】【人】【生】【最】【大】【的】【破】【绽】【】【也】【正】【在】【这】【十】【五】【年】【之】【间】【，】【也】【正】【在】【郑】【州】【的】【亚】【细】【亚】【大】【街】【之】【上】【】【终】【于】【明】【了】【那】【样】【一】【个】【如】【轮】【子】【无】【休】【无】【止】【旋】【转】【着】【的】【世】【界】【，】【轴】【心】【并】【不】【是】【自】【己】【和】【自】【己】【一】【样】【的】【人】【】【而】【是】【唐】【豹】【，】【和】【豹】【子】【一】【样】【的】【人】【】【可】【是】【，】【她】【又】【总】【是】【拿】【不】【定】【主】【意】【】【该】【不】【该】【把】【她】【在】【郑】【州】【那】【些】【人】【生】【破】【绽】【告】【诉】【天】【元】【。】【也】【许】【说】【了】【】【他】【会】【感】【到】【恶】【心】【。】【如】【若】【不】【说】【】【她】【又】【怕】【有】【一】【天】【天】【元】【知】【道】【，】【会】【导】【致】【一】【场】【更】【大】【的】【凄】【惨】【】【然】【而】【，】【她】【却】【不】【知】【】【她】【在】【省】【会】【的】【一】【切】【作】【为】【，】【天】【元】【通】【过】【母】【亲】【的】【双】【眼】【】【已】【经】【看】【得】【十】【分】【明】【了】【。】【就】【是】【她】【第】【二】【次】【婚】【姻】【的】【失】【败】【】【连】【她】【在】【四】【十】【多】【岁】【奇】【迹】【般】【地】【重】【新】【怀】【孕】【，】【又】【生】【下】【一】【个】【男】【婴】【的】【小】【尸】【】【母】【亲】【也】【已】【见】【了】【多】【次】【，】【想】【母】【亲】【哪】【能】【不】【告】【诉】【自】【己】【的】【儿】【子】【】【无】【非】【做】【儿】【子】【不】【敢】【相】【信】【，】【母】【亲】【所】【说】【都】【是】【实】【情】【而】【已】【】【她】【毕】【竟】【是】【死】【过】【十】【年】【的】【人】【，】【所】【言】【所】【为】【】【哪】【能】【让】【活】【人】【百】【分】【之】【百】【的】【信】【以】【为】【真】【呢】【。】【 】【 】【 】【 】【 】【梅】【说】【：】【“】【现】【在】【我】【也】【不】【是】【十】【分】【想】【返】【城】【】【”】【 】【 】【 】【 】【 】【老】【虎】【梁】【子】【甜】【又】【甜】【，】【 】【 】【 】【 】【 】【 】【 】【 】【“】【没】【这】【缘】【分】【】【”】【他】【说】【：】【“】【我】【想】【了】【，】【狐】【狸】【哪】【都】【合】【适】【】【”】【 】【 】【 】【 】【 】【 】【 】【梅】【说】【：】【“】【你】【们】【詓】【吧】【，】【有】【一】【天】【后】【悔】【了】【】【我】【还】【是】【你】【们】【的】【大】【姐】【，】【可】【鉯】【随】【时】【回】【来】【的】【】【”】【 】【 】【 】【 】【 】【 】【 】【 】【孩】【娃】【儿】【害】【怕】【了】【，】【回】【头】【找】【自】【己】【的】【奶】【奶】【】【老】【人】【正】【在】【后】【边】【与】【碰】【到】【的】【婆】【娘】【说】【着】【啥】【儿】【；】【找】【伴】【儿】【黄】【黄】【，】【又】【不】【知】【它】【钻】【到】【了】【哪】【儿】【】【便】【慌】【慌】【忙】【忙】【追】【上】【父】【亲】【，】【拉】【着】【他】【的】【手】【说】【】【我】【怕】【。】【 】【 】【 】【 】【 】【“】【我】【想】【着】【不】【会】【没】【有】【】【借】【了】【你】【让】【我】【还】【。】【”】【 】【 】【 】【 】【 】【“】【没】【人】【能】【干】【涉】【我】【了】【】【我】【还】【是】【想】【和】【伱】【结】【婚】【，】【今】【天】【正】【式】【来】【和】【你】【说】【说】【】【”】【 】【 】【 】【 】【 】【 】【“】【總】【该】【有】【些】【事】【的】【。】【”】【 】【 】【 】【 】【 】【“】【哎】【呀】【菊】【子】【】【到】【今】【儿】【我】【俩】【结】【婚】【整】【三】【年】【。】【到】【今】【儿】【】【也】【是】【老】【汉】【走】【后】【的】【第】【四】【十】【五】【天】【耶】【！】【”】【 】【 】【 】【 】【 】【也】【许】【当】【初】【就】【根】【本】【不】【该】【和】【城】【里】【人】【结】【婚】【。】【乡】【土】【社】【会】【和】【都】【市】【是】【截】【然】【不】【同】【的】【两】【片】【风】【景】【】【结】【婚】【归】【结】【婚】【，】【然】【而】【相】【随】【年】【龄】【增】【长】【】【入】【世】【愈】【深】【，】【阅】【历】【愈】【透】【】【同】【时】【也】【终】【于】【明】【白】【，】【农】【民】【和】【城】【里】【人】【的】【沟】【通】【】【则】【完】【完】【全】【全】【是】【靠】【农】【民】【对】【城】【市】【人】【的】【理】【解】【和】【宽】【忍】【，】【而】【想】【让】【城】【市】【人】【从】【根】【本】【上】【理】【解】【农】【民】【】【压】【根】【也】【是】【不】【可】【能】【的】【。】【他】【们】【有】【的】【只】【是】【各】【种】【各】【样】【的】【抱】【怨】【】【可】【是】【有】【了】【这】【段】【命】【运】【，】【张】【老】【师】【似】【乎】【也】【最】【终】【洞】【明】【了】【所】【谓】【人】【生】【是】【什】【么】【东】【西】【】【他】【走】【在】【路】【上】【还】【在】【想】【，】【怪】【不】【得】【有】【那】【么】【多】【的】【人】【信】【教】【和】【迷】【信】【】【大】【概】【都】【是】【为】【了】【给】【自】【己】【胡】【乱】【找】【一】【样】【寄】【托】【，】【给】【生】【活】【光】【景】【中】【加】【些】【意】【思】【】【连】【村】【长】【的】【媳】【妇】【，】【不】【也】【一】【日】【一】【日】【】【跑】【三】【十】【里】【路】【到】【一】【个】【老】【庙】【烧】【香】【吗】【。】【听】【说】【一】【个】【副】【县】【长】【为】【了】【给】【母】【亲】【治】【病】【】【也】【曾】【在】【神】【像】【前】【跪】【了】【三】【个】【小】【时】【。】【 】【 】【 】【 】【 】【“】【就】【怕】【有】【我】【狐】【狸】【在】【他】【不】【敢】【来】【娶】【伱】【】【”】【 】【 】【 】【 】【 】【三】【日】【之】【后】【，】【狐】【狸】【被】【抓】【走】【了】【】【黄】【黄】【记】【得】【了】【那】【时】【的】【梅】【，】【站】【在】【人】【群】【的】【背】【后】【】【泪】【水】【涟】【涟】【。】【那】【一】【年】【是】【知】【青】【大】【返】【城】【的】【开】【始】【】【张】【家】【营】【子】【的】【八】【名】【知】【青】【，】【已】【经】【走】【了】【五】【名】【】【仅】【还】【有】【它】【的】【主】【人】【梅】【、】【狐】【狸】【和】【另】【外】【一】【人】【。】【梅】【似】【乎】【早】【知】【是】【狐】【狸】【杀】【死】【了】【耕】【牛】【】【早】【抓】【晚】【抓】【是】【时】【间】【的】【事】【，】【然】【被】【抓】【走】【却】【是】【一】【定】【了】【的】【】【所】【以】【她】【并】【不】【感】【到】【惊】【奇】【，】【只】【感】【到】【对】【狐】【狸】【的】【迷】【惑】【和】【戴】【上】【手】【铐】【的】【酸】【楚】【】【同】【一】【节】【火】【车】【把】【他】【们】【运】【出】【省】【会】【，】【同】【一】【辆】【汽】【车】【把】【他】【们】【运】【到】【县】【城】【】【又】【同】【一】【辆】【牛】【车】【把】【他】【们】【拉】【到】【这】【张】【家】【营】【子】【。】【至】【今】【】【该】【东】【的】【东】【，】【该】【西】【的】【西】【；】【返】【城】【的】【返】【城】【去】【了】【】【蹲】【监】【的】【正】【走】【向】【囚】【车】【。】【留】【下】【的】【和】【这】【张】【家】【营】【子】【】【日】【后】【是】【依】【然】【日】【出】【而】【作】【，】【日】【落】【而】【息】【】【人】【世】【的】【苍】【凉】【，】【这】【当】【儿】【如】【雨】【前】【的】【乌】【云】【】【罩】【在】【台】【子】【地】【的】【上】【空】【。】【地】【下】【一】【米】【多】【处】【】【是】【被】【考】【究】【为】【文】【化】【层】【的】【黄】【土】【，】【这】【土】【上】【站】【的】【人】【们】【】【却】【一】【片】【片】【死】【着】【不】【言】【，】【只】【有】【狐】【狸】【走】【向】【囚】【车】【的】【脚】【步】【】【咚】【咚】【咚】【地】【炸】【在】【地】【上】【。】【狐】【狸】【走】【在】【村】【人】【们】【给】【闪】【开】【的】【通】【道】【上】【】【囚】【车】【的】【后】【门】【向】【他】【敞】【开】【时】【，】【他】【用】【手】【抓】【住】【了】【门】【边】【】【手】【铐】【与】【铁】【门】【相】【碰】【的】【声】【响】【，】【生】【脆】【如】【铁】【器】【敲】【打】【着】【河】【水】【】【似】【乎】【，】【他】【走】【得】【很】【毅】【然】【】【可】【是】【，】【他】【纵】【身】【要】【上】【车】【时】【】【却】【突】【然】【转】【过】【身】【子】【，】【在】【人】【群】【中】【搜】【了】【一】【眼】【】【 】【 】【 】【 】【 】【狐】【狸】【说】【他】【一】【定】【要】【告】【。】【天】【知】【道】【他】【修】【梯】【田】【时】【有】【多】【少】【晚】【上】【没】【睡】【】【通】【宵】【达】【旦】【，】【比】【张】【家】【营】【地】【道】【的】【农】【民】【多】【掏】【了】【多】【少】【力】【气】【】【可】【忽】【然】【他】【病】【了】【，】【高】【烧】【到】【三】【十】【九】【度】【七】【】【说】【胡】【话】【的】【时】【候】【，】【他】【拉】【着】【爬】【在】【他】【床】【边】【的】【黄】【黄】【的】【耳】【朵】【】【说】【黄】【黄】【，】【只】【有】【你】【看】【见】【了】【】【那】【晚】【上】【我】【累】【昏】【在】【梯】【田】【上】【，】【差】【点】【死】【过】【去】【】【可】【我】【们】【一】【开】【始】【就】【上】【了】【人】【家】【圈】【套】【。】【等】【他】【醒】【转】【过】【来】【】【看】【见】【梅】【一】【直】【坐】【在】【他】【的】【床】【边】【，】【他】【又】【拉】【着】【梅】【的】【手】【说】【】【我】【少】【听】【了】【你】【一】【句】【话】【，】【我】【们】【要】【合】【修】【】【我】【们】【就】【是】【一】【亩】【七】【分】【梯】【田】【，】【比】【他】【们】【多】【四】【分】【】【那】【返】【城】【的】【就】【是】【你】【或】【我】【。】【 】【 】【 】【 】【 】【“】【你】【不】【高】【兴】【是】【因】【为】【小】【麥】【比】【大】【麦】【先】【熟】【了】【】【”】【 】【 】【 】【 】【 】【“】【离】【婚】【。】【”】【 】【 】【 】【 】【 】【 】【 】【“】【看】【到】【了】【哪】【】【”】【 】【 】【 】【 】【 】【唐】【说】【：】【“】【一】【定】【要】【倾】【其】【所】【有】【。】【”】【 】【 】【 】【 】【 】【 】【 】【婆】【婆】【说】【：】【“】【由】【不】【得】【他】【】【囿】【我】【去】【说】【。】【”】【 】【 】【 】【 】【 】【 】【 】【 】【“】【我】【哪】【儿】【没】【有】【他】【张】【天】【元】【好】【】【”】【 】【 】