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of this is that . You can't you can't you can't.
you change your location
or company, you are still the same. You
still have the same
ideas, the same
manner of dealing with people, the same hangups,
the same problems. You can't get
from them unless you actually change
them, because they will
wherever you go.
You can never
from yourself, but you can change.
, getting a , won't make anyone change, but things like that might make changing .
The hardest part is recognizing
you need to change yourself, and what parts of you are
and others.
Nothing is .
I disagree.
You can get away from yourself. It's when you get away from yourself that you start to lose yourself. And it's when you lose yourself that you lose , too. So you're left with no one around you and
where you used to be.
And then you start to fall in.
and feel the wind whistling below you like the giant gaping
that scared you shitless when you were a little kid, you somehow pull yourself back up again, and you start to remember why you loved being there in the first place.
This is the core idea behind the often repeated but rarely
&No matter where you go, there you are&
and there is a corresponding idea in the
&There is nowhere to go, there is nothing to do.&
&Yourself& , and one can influence the evolution, but one always brings the old self along - the new self is a shell around the old self, like a layer on an .
to this is &&, i.e. the
goes through developmental stages which reflect the earlier creatures from which we evolved.
The big difference is that one's personality can revert to those previous &selves& with the right .&
can be a serious trigger, and the likelihood of reversion can depend on the , , and
of the new self, and motivations behind its development.
So, you can't get away from yourself, but you can go back to yourself or come back to yourself.
Got to get back to the garden
It was supposed to be something along the lines of a .
attempt to
the steps he had taken before wandering off the path.
More than a year had passed since the traveler's last visit to the place he referred to as his "church."
There didn't seem to be much reason to .
Three years had passed since the last details
themselves.
Three queens were supposed to
themselves and from them he was to learn the
They were perhaps only the description of a riddle, for although he tried to convince himself he understood the meaning of the riddle, none of the solutions he came up with left him .
It was three years since the last of the three queens left the church.
In their absence
could only imagine the
would cease to radiate the kind of
it once had.
"What do you believe in?"
The traveler awoke that
with a strange
that would later
itself in a powerful
to return to the restaurant he called his church.
carried by , he could not escape it.
There was time.
He waited until evening was upon him and drove out to the church.
was to have a couple of beers, remember times gone by, and head home satisfied that this chapter of his life's story was over.
"You will have no doubt and the sky will turn to gold."
There were riddles within the riddle, and this one had taken on a
of its own.
As he drove, he could see the sky behind him and it glowed with the .
The sky had turned to , this time behind him, leading him to believe it was a sign that the story was over and behind him now.
in the sign.
area of the church had been almost completely redesigned.
was evident, but the place remained .
He sat down at the bar.
was the only employee of this church remaining from the days of the .
He didn't know she still worked there.
It had been a long time since he set foot on this once personally .
There had been a funeral.
had been twenty-five years old when she died, having unwillingly walked past the goalposts after a lifelong .
The bartender had been her best friend.
The traveler sensed his
notion to visit the old church was more than just .
There was a story to be told.
Having heard only small slices of the man's story over the years, the bartender figured he might be able to understand what was on her mind.
Others said she was stressed and .
The man who sat at her bar had moved fifteen hundred miles in order to .
Now she had a dream of her own.
"She came to me in a dream.It wasn't like a dream, though.I could swear she was really there."
The traveler's
and the appearance of recently deceased persons made the bartender's story most interesting to him.
had appeared to both of them on the night of her .
Her presence was so powerful that it left both of them
if they were awake or dreaming.
The message Christina gave to each of them was quite different.
of her friend, the bartender, she was at first panicked.
She told her "I am still alive.
Why are they trying to kill me?"
Then she would appear again, happy and , her
restored to its fullest
and all signs of her illness and
She asked her friend how her funeral was.
Her friend responded by asking, "Weren't you there?"
Christina laughed and told her she had not.
"I've been busy."
In life we tend to show
of ourselves to different people.
We share sides of ourselves with those we believe will be
and hide other sides of ourselves we believe will be rejected or scoffed at.
It is rare when we find
with whom we can be completely open.
or lifetime
usually doesn't know everything about a person.
Some pieces stay locked inside.
There are some things we might never
with anyone.
knew things about Christina that her
did not know.
knew more details about her life than the traveler.
After all, Christina and the traveler had only briefly been lovers and remained
friends after that.
Still, he was the only one who knew that she believed she would not live very long.
She planned for the
and spoke of brilliant things that would happen with her , her future home and the great life she would have.
To the traveler she confessed that she did in fact want these things, but they were a dream she clung to as she .
She had a strong feeling that her
was not completely gone from her body and would return.
And it did.
"It is part of my religion."
Each person is a , adrift in their own personal universe making
and trying to understand themselves.
Most do it , finding ways to
themselves, others are
of their journey.
Like the traveler, they are trying to understand why they are here.
The dead that walk among you have a need to understand.
between "Why am I here?" and "Why am I still here?" is very big.
The nature of the difference can only be truly understood if you are one of us.
Otherwise it is merely .
are not all that different.
They are beginnings.
of someone close can often be a sign and they are often the ones who are .
Before you accept that you have passed on from one frame to the next, you often fight and try to .
Sometimes the soul gets trapped .
Sometimes it shines brightly for just long enough to show .
The traveler had forgotten.Now he remembers.
It has been two months since my last confession.
The journey continues, as do the distractions.
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Marvin Sapp Lyrics
"Never Would Have Made It"
Never would have made it
Never could have made it without You
I would have lost it all
But now I see how You were there for me
And I can say
Never would have made it
Never could have made it
Without You
I would have lost it all
But I now I see
How You were there for me
And I can say
I'm stronger, I'm wiser
I'm better, much better
When I look back
Over all You brought me through
I can see that You were the One
I held on to
And I never, never would have made it
(Never would have made it)
Oh, I never could have made it
(Never could have made it without You)
Oh, I would have lost it all
Oh, but now I see
How You were there for me
(Never would have made it)
No, I never
(Never could have made it without You)
I would've lost my mind
A long time ago
If it had not been for You
I am stronger
(I am stronger
I am wiser
(I am wiser)
And now I am better
(I am better)
So much better
(Much better)
Through my storm and my test
Because You were there
To carry me through my mess
I am stronger
(I am stronger
I am wiser
(I am wiser)
I am better
(I am better)
Anybody better
(Much better)
I can stand here and tell You
Anybody out there
That You made it
I'm stronger
(I'm stronger)
I am wiser
(I'm wiser)
I'm better
(I'm better)
Much better
(Much better)
(I made it)
(I made it)
(I made it)
(I made it)
Never would have made it
(Never would have made it)
Never could have made
(Never could have made it without You)
I would have lost my mind
I would have gave up
But You were right there
You were right there
(Never would have made it)
Oh, I never
(Never could have made it without You)
Somebody just
Need to testify this tonight
Next to them
I am stronger, I am wiser
I am better, much better
When I look back
Over what He brought me through
I realize that I made it
Because I had You to hold on to
Now I am stronger, now I am wiser
I am better, so much better
I've made it
Is there anybody in this house other than me
That could declare You made it
Tell Your neighbor
Never would have made it
(Never would have made it)
Tell em never could have made it
(Never could have made it without You)
Oh, I wish I had some help here
I wish I had just two or three people
That would just declare it
Never would have made it
(Never would have made it)
Never could have made it
(Never could have made it without You)
I just, I just love to encourage myself
Sometime I look in the mirror and say
I'm stronger, I'm wiser
I am better, so much better
When I look back over
What He brought me through
I realize that I made it
Because I had You to hold on to
But I never would have made it
I never could have made it without You
Yeah, yeah, yeah, lawdy
Oh, I good God, Almighty
Never would have made it
(Never would have made it)
Never could have made it
(Never could have made it without You)
Sing it one more time
All I need is just one more time
Everybody sing with me
Never would have made it
Never could have made it without You
Writer(s): Marvin L. Sapp, Matthew Richard Brownie
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